habitually making no sense

Soon to say goodbye

I was going to say I will miss the soliders the most. :3 But, i’m only kidding. I will miss my friends the most. I’ve met a lot of great people from all over. I will also miss the culture and atmosphere here. I love being able to take a bus in to Tel Aviv and visit the market or go to the beach. It’s just so fun, simple, and laidback. Pretty much like my personality. I feel like I fit well here. Whereas in America, it sort of seems like a bubble. People are so preoccupied with other things. It’s like everyone is in their own bubble and they are controlled by popular media. “DO what facebook says. THIS thing is cool, buy it. YOU must watch this show or else you will be left out.” Just it’s so dumb. In Israel, i just feel the aura and flow of the people is very different. People just want to live peaceful lives…It’s what you want most when your kids are sent to the military and you are surround by people who hate you. It’s just a completely different world here. 

levavot asked: watcha thinkin about

how much of a motherfuckin’ chiller i am. 

my handwriting analysis

1. work ethic- a lot of scattered energy, lack of discipline, lot of energy but good that you are oriented towards goals, willpower, need to narrow goals, survivor, able to make new goals if the others fall apart

2. creativity- extremely creative, think outside of the box, groundbreaking with a conservative streak, combination of wild and grounded, visionary

3. intellect- bright, too fast, get bored easily, insightful, flexible, whatever you are passionate about- you are capable of doing, very analytical, like learning new skills but independent, able to see connections between things and you really enjoy that

4. leadership and managerial skills- independent, high standards and opinions, respect talent, relationships with people are emotional- sometimes you like them and sometimes you don’t, can get easily annoyed and defensive, can’t control emotions with people, can be very extroverted or very introverted, defensive, not understood because you are a complex person, low tolerance for people, great qualities for a leader but don’t like the interactions between people

5. judgement- able to take risks because of judgment but still conservative, creates emotional attachment but then you act conservative and stop because you don’t want to take the risk, excitement versus passionless, subjective: excitement, irritability. 

6. people- want people to like you but are afraid that they don’t like you, almost no one understands you, not sure what to do with people, insightful, not looking for a fight, able to make peace, good listener, able to do things when you want to, vulnerable, not sure what you want from people

7. implementer- know how to get things done, problem solver, if passionate enough- alb to do it, bore quickly, don’t care about a lot of things, will do it if have to, a lot of things get on nerves, disorganized inspiration, need more discipline to get stuff done, need something exciting in order to be motivated.

8. optimism, cultured, love education and knowledge, mind is so fast- lacks patience, hard for you to do mundane things, will listen to criticism, open to learning, details are important, hate routine and boredom- need more discipline 

9.integrity- know right from wrong, but get outraged when not dealt with properly won’t start fights but once you are involved- become almost unstoppable, you justify your anger, you cut corners because you know you are right, you can be hard to trust because you like to do things your way, you jump steps that seem stupid, will driver sticklers crazy and they will drive you crazy, there are a lot of games you don’t want to play

10. communication- often right and are not afraid to tell the truth to someone, able to say things and be verbally articulate, although you don’t always say things in the right way because you are impatient and blunt, so you say what you wants and expect people to handle it, too smart for your own good

11.completer- when you are motivated, you get things done, you are very intelligent

in summary

highly intelligent, highly creative, high drive and motivation, irritated by the world, have a desire to be liked and afraid that you aren’t liked, underneath your prickly shell you are a very sensitive person, almost never understood by anybody, you are saved from going crazy because you don’t take people too seriously, you need to find something you are passionate about or else you will not do well, not a business woman, you are an academic, and inventor, straightforward, you don’t market yourself because you don’t have a high motivation to show yourself off to people, people often feel you don’t care because of how blunt you are and how you play by your own rules, you need to find someone who knows when to leave you alone and give you space and when to be close to you and be together, need someone that understands you how no one else does., annoyed by rules, have a lot of hope, intolerance for boredom, really love seeing things that others don’t 

Bold where you recognize yourself

I am a male.

I am a girl.

I think I’m ugly sometimes.

I have scars.

I tan easily. 

I wish my hair was a different color.

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.

I have a tattoo.

I am self-conscious about my appearance.

I have/I’ve had braces.

I wear glasses/contacts.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.

I have more than 2 piercings.

I have piercing in places besides my ears.

I have freckles.

I’ve sworn at my parents.

I’ve run away from home.

I’ve been kicked out of the house.

I have a sibling less than six year old.

I want to have kids someday. 

I’ve lost a child.

I’m in school.

I have a job. 

I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.

I almost always do/did my homework.

I’ve missed a week or more of school. 

I failed more than 1 class last year.

I’ve stolen something from my job.

I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.

Disney movies still make me cry.

I’ve peed from laughing. 

I’ve snorted while laughing.

I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.

I’ve glued my hand to something. 

I’ve had my pants rip in public.

I was born with a disease/impairment.

I’ve gotten stitches/staples.

I’ve broken a bone.

I’ve had my tonsils removed.

I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.

I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed. 

I had a serious surgery.

I’ve had chicken pox.

I’ve had measles.

I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.

I’ve been on a plane.

I’ve been to Canada.

I’ve been to Mexico.

I’ve been to Niagara Falls.

I’ve been to Japan.

I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

I’ve been to Europe.

I’ve been to Africa.

I’ve gotten lost in my city.

I’ve seen a shooting star.

I’ve wished on a shooting star.

I’ve seen a meteor shower.

I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.

I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.

I’ve been to a casino.

I’ve been skydiving.

I’ve gone skinny dipping. 

I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. 

I’ve crashed a car.

I’ve been skiing.

I’ve been in a play.

I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.

I’ve seen the Northern lights.

I’ve sat on a roof top at night.

I’ve played chicken fight.

I’ve played a prank on someone.

I’ve ridden in a taxi.

I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

I’ve eaten sushi.

I’ve been snowboarding.

I’ve gone on a blind date. 

I miss someone right now.

I have a fear of abandonment.

I’ve gotten divorced.

I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.

I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

I’ve kept something from a past relationship. 

I’ve had a crush on a teacher. 

I am a cuddler.                                                                                              

I’ve been kissed in the rain.

I’ve hugged a stranger. 

I have kissed a stranger.

I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.

I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.

I’ve snuck out of my house.

I have lied to my parents about where I am.

I am keeping a secret from the world.

I’ve cheated while playing a game. 

I’ve cheated on a test. 

I’ve run a red light.

I’ve been suspended from school.

I’ve witnessed a crime.

I’ve been in a fist fight.

I’ve been arrested. 

I’ve consumed alcohol.

I regularly drink.

I’ve passed out from drinking.

I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.

I’ve smoked weed.

I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.

I’ve eaten shrooms.

I’ve popped E.

I’ve inhaled Nitrous.

I’ve done hard drugs.

I have cough drops when I’m not sick.

I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.

I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.

I shut others out when I’m depressed.

I take anti-depressants.

I have been anorexic or bulimic.

I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.

I’ve hurt myself on purpose. 

I’ve woken up crying.

I’m afraid of dying.

I hate funerals.

I’ve seen someone dying.

Someone close to me has committed suicide.

I’ve planned my own suicide.

I’ve attempted suicide.

I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

I own over 5 rap CDs.

I own an iPod or MP3 player.

I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. 

I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.

I own something from Hot Topic.

I own something from Pac Sun. 

I collect comic books.I